Thursday, November 4, 2010

to the haters:

when did it become so hard to carry on a friendship due to your own opinion of a person and not what everyone else thinks?  when did it become acceptable to glare at people just because you feel like it?  why is it okay to go around spewing negativity about people that have never done anything to you?

some days i just want to scream.  i want my old life.  i want my old friends.  i want the naivete and ignorance.  i want the happy go lucky, everybody likes me, the world is full of laughs and fun and falling leaves and overall happiness.  sometimes i want that, and then i remember...

i don't like fake people.  i don't desire to be fake.  i don't like two-faced people and people that stab me in the back.  i don't want fake happiness and false positivity.  i don't want naivete and ignorance.  i want to be present in every moment, treasure it while it lasts, and store it away in the whole scheme of who i am.

to dwell and desire the past is truly just silly.  live and learn.  every situation that has happened in life has made me into who i am today.  i am unable to please everyone.  i am unable to make everyone happy while still looking out for myself.

there are some people that will never be truly happy.  they will use, abuse, get "hurt", and move on.  it's a cycle.  and i don't desire those people in my life.  i have good friends.  i have friends that have stuck by me through thick and thin.  i don't need the others.

so to the others, see you later -- sayonara.  life goes on without your self-centered, pessimistic attitude and i will enjoy it without you.