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All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough. They will tell you no a thousand times, no until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly, and very quickly. They will tell you no. And YOU will tell them yes. -Nike

last day.

Today was the last day at my field placement. Even though I only went 7 times, I felt like I had made such a bond with the students. There was a comfort level. A trust level. My last day there was also the day my college class took a tour of the facilities. As my class was leaving the classroom I usually observe in, one of the students called out for me to stay. I wasn't supposed to leave with my friends. Talk about a tug at the heart strings. It's so difficult to go into that place and know that my smiling face, my supervisor's hug, the principal's pat on the back may be the only positive part of that student's day. The food they get at school may be the only meal they eat. I fell in love with those kids.

At the end of this field placement, I'm sad. The last few? I've been happy to see them pass. I've been excited to move on and experience new things, but this time... I found where I'm meant to be, what calling I possess. I miss the kiddos already. They were nuts -- heck, they drove me NUTS! -- but it was such a rewarding experience. I wouldn't trade the early mornings, long drives, and caffeine headaches for anything!

emotions.

disappointed.
discouraged.
tired.
depressed.
deserted.
inept.
underestimated.
awkward.
lonely.
insecure.
manipulated.
unsure.
angry.
invalidated.
robbed.
defensive.
guarded.

my blog has been a whole lot of nothing. and it appears that that is how it shall continue to be. i can't think of what to write but these are the words that seem to pop into my head today.

someday, one day things will begin to look up.

is there a purpose?

God doesn't give you the people you want. He gives you the people you NEED -- to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you're meant to be!

little wonders.

Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
[...]
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain

thilly tharah!

today was my roommate's junior recital and she...

rocked it.

it was so amazing and i am so glad i get to call her a friend. her voice is ridiculously awesome, amazing, fantastic, etc.

one of her friends wrote a great summary on her facebook:

*stun-ning*
adjective

synonyms: Sarah, Sarah's recital, Sarah's voice, Sarah's dress.

See "beautiful", "amazing", "talented". Also see "Sarah. PERIOD." :).

--

good job, apartmentmate of mine.

pee ess// this is my spider.

:)

"Be soft, do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

hello? can you see me?

i have a pet peeve. okay, lets be honest -- i probably have multiple pet peeves. my biggest pet peeve at the moment though is...

when people can't look, accept, and acknowledge a human being for who they are.

i was contemplating writing about it on my blog and then decided against it. but today, i saw it played out in real life, studied on extreme makeover: home edition, and portrayed on oprah. everyone is a unique individual, created in the image of Christ, and deserving of love, affection, and acknowledgment. i'm not saying we have to get along with everyone in the world, but you have to give people a chance.

everyone has a purpose in life. we are all put on this earth for a reason and i truly, deeply believe that. the severely cognitively impaired child with six different medical needs is on this earth for a reason. to smile. to bring joy to those around them. we don't all have to get the highest degree in our field, invent the newest, handiest-dandiest self-help aid, write a novel on our experiences, etc.

quality of life isn't based on how much money a person makes, the color of one's skin, a person's age, etc. it is based on happiness. therefore, it is our job to live each day to the fullest, enjoy our time on earth, because we are all here for a reason -- none bigger or smaller than the other.

drip, drip, drip.

it poured here today. here is an interesting term though. it tsunami-ed outside. it was ridiculous. in about fifteen minutes, we got five inches of rain. NUTS. in my bedroom, we got a lot of water too.

drip, drip, drip...

right onto my futon. my sweatshirt. my blanket. a picture frame. it was everywhere. i love water. i love storms. but i do NOT love when water meets with things that are not water resistant.

no good at all.

in addition to the leak in the ceiling and the soaked belongings: our bathroom is being painted and i've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to make sure i can register for my classes. pain in the butt, for sure.

then i had sushi for lunch...

...and all is right in the world.

that's the way it is!

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called love

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause love's gonna conquer it all, all

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

That's the way it is
That's the way it is, babe
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is.

--Celine Dion