goodbye vs. see you later.

i hate goodbyes.  i like to avoid them if possible.  i've been known to hide out when someone leaves so i don't have to experience that moment.  i'd prefer to think of people's departures as "see you later" moments.  i don't want to have an "end" to my time with them, i'd like it to just be a continuation of our relationship as a later date.  washing the dishes in the apartment with my roommates to moving in in the fall.  i don't want there to be the purposeful interruption of the two events.  enjoying the time together, enjoy the time apart.  don't put an emotional divide down the middle. 

does that make sense?  

anyways, i had one of those goodbye moments today.  my brother left for a month.  i know it's not that long of a time, but i wish he would have just left in the middle of the night -- and maybe left his kitten here.  the house has gone from being so full of life to so... empty without him and his cat here.  trust me: we'll be okay without him.  but we do get along incredibly well and it is awfully nice to have someone else here to deflect some of the attention i'll be getting for the next month.  hah.

in addition, my work hours have been cut in.... a lot of pieces.  shredded.  i am working less than a quarter of what i did last summer.  i'm bored out of my mind.  my summer school prof has cancelled the first three classes and i, therefore, may drop because i won't be learning much in this class and it is the basis for my next psych class.  are you doing the math?

i'm way too bored.