overwhelmed.

I've been back from California for over a week now.  It was an awesome trip.  It was so nice to "escape" the immediate reminders of an awfully empty house.  The weather wasn't warm but it was very sunny so, I can't complain too much.  Our hotel room had an ocean view and someone nicely paid for us to receive anonymous amenities every day.  We did some touristy stuff, but more than anything simply enjoyed the different atmosphere.  A lot of family friends were there as well, and we enjoyed catching up with everyone.

On one day, they had a luncheon simply dedicated to Dad.  They went around from table to table and people were able to share their favorite memories of him.  It is funny how many different perspectives and memories their were.  Many memories recalled helped unlock deeper memories within me as well.  It was very sweet.  Thankfully, they taped it too so we can go back and watch it as many times as we want.  :)

Since we've been home from vacation though, things have begun to get crazy.  All the sudden it feels like nothing is under control anymore and I've become a bit of a watering pot.  Cleaning out drawers and cabinets and shelves just brings back many more memories.  There are a lot of repairs around the house that need to be tended too immediately, and then there is all the financial stuff that needs to be figured out -- yesterday.

For the first month I was numb.  It was just go, go, go and tons of stuff got taken care of.  We went on vacation to simply relax and did so successfully; now that we're back -- it's all consuming and a little bit crazy to say the least.

I'm simply overwhelmed.