unhappiness.

there isn't much left that is redeeming about this place. i used to talk about how much i loved it, what a second home it is, blah blah blah. today, i'm just not feeling that though. its my first full day back from break, the day before classes start again and there is no excitement. i'm sitting in my room with the door shut, my music on, and praying the days away until july 2 when i can go home.

i seem to be living in a pervasive mood of unhappiness. i never felt that way at home. some may say it's homesick but it really isn't. being home was nice but it wasn't the end all be all to my happiness. it was just the place of escape from this place. i stopped at my friend's college. i was happy there. i went to open houses, unfamiliar places, and i was happy there. we're getting ready to sell the house i lived in for most of my life and i was still happy.

today, i'm not very happy though. i enjoy my classes. my professors aren't half bad. i have a few awesome friends. but besides that, i can't wait to get out of here. the sooner the better. this institution is no longer a place full of excitement and fond memories, but instead something i LONG to put in the past.

sometimes things seem sweeter in hindsight. you know?