the future.

In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. - Psalm 5:3

there is something great about the new year: the mystery of the future, the hope of what is to come. yet i still couldn't bring myself to get moving. the reality is, i'm probably just suffering from depression. yes, 2010 may hold great memories and progress, but it is a time that dad will never know. dad was never a part of this decade, this year. every change in my life since february 27, 2009 until the day i die is going to bring those feelings though, so i must learn to manage these emotions now.

the new year doesn't have to be depressing. there is hope of what is to come. tomorrow is another day. monday is a new week. february will be a new month. i love that. i love being able to look towards the future. i think it is a great gift God has given us. God's time is undefined, yet he has given us a human measurement and that sense of hope. and that is why i'm starting today. because yesterday wasn't great, but today is much more uplifting. it's never too late to start a resolution because every day is a new day. everyday when i wake up, i need to thank God for the day i have been blessed with and lay my concerns and expectations out there. as a human, i expect things -- even if they aren't fair. God is all knowing, omnipotent, and able to handle anything i throw at Him.

so i end with my favorite quote from today's (or should i say "yesterday's") devotional: "Without him, our lives stretch out to a hopeless end. With him we have the endless hope of a heavenly tomorrow."